Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Self-reflection

I watched a short speech made by Susan Cain about introverts in this North American culture, and found myself saying, "thank you" towards my monitor (I'm sure Susan Cain can't hear me, lol). Her voice and her speech tone reminds me of Lisa Kudrow, who is also an intuitive introvert as well.

As an introvert, I have had experienced some misconceptions about me--especially during my early adolescent years, when I wasn't as articulate enough to make others understand my introversion. For instance, I unintentionally upset an assertive-and-bubbly old friend for declining a movie night (it was on Wednesday night, and I have already went to the movies the week prior.) I made an excuse that I knew my mother would say, "no" despite that my old friend clearly saw that I didn't even bothered asking. I wasn't sure how to tell people that I needed my own space and time as my priority. I wasn't even clear about how I still love to have my social days too and not every single night.

It wasn't too well with some instructors either. I have had 'no points' for not speaking up right away in most literature classes, even though I felt like I was participating by just listening. During listening processes, that's how I create ideas. During the time in school, I had my extroverted mask in order to receive a point. With the lack of intuition time, I only shared a shallow comment of an awful over-analyzed symbol for a romantic poem. But if I were to take that romantic poem home as an assignment, I would come up with better results.

While some of my instructors played the random 'call on the person game', I think I was also lucky enough to also receive instructors who were mindful of introversion. And luckily, I ended up with friends (both introverts and extroverts) who are understanding of this type of personality. I later did more research by reading Myers-Briggs type indication studies--and learned to embrace myself for the way I am.

This does not mean that I will crawl back to my hermit shell, as an introvert, I actually appreciate being around people. I'm still trying to reach to feng shui or having a balance in my personality. However, I can't object those freebie days when I need time to myself. I was born this way, and that's how I roll. *Wears sunglasses*











Well, enjoy this speech! Now, I will go to my quiet corner to draw!

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